Back here I think we have given her friends the time to enter the and/or achieve the possibility of saying goodbyes. I think I have contacted most of those who have been with with her. It feels we are entering the stage where is time for goodbyes to be passed on rather than be made directly.
Last night one of her yoga friends gave us her guru's chant that was played / sung as he meditated when he passed into his next life. She talked about this as part of her way forward quiet a few times over the last 11 months. The chant makes you really sleepy and one of her buddies who gets an elephant stamp and gold stars for support all through this long year gave my son and I massages whilst listening to it. It is played permanently at her guru's ashram to this day. It took a while for us to find the repeat button so that she could have it playing all last night. We then left her in peace and went home to sleep. I wonder if it is still playing. Hope its not driving her crazy.
Her sister is flying back for the day. She needs more closure than being with for her to weeks ago. I understand. She sounded like she was falling to bits on the phone.
On Saturday I put up a frieze of photos in her room that I chose of her that have been take all through her life. I made sure they were the most beautiful I could find in our albums, had them duplicated which was hard at the store. I had to look at the bargains to stop my eyes leaking badly in public and be whipped off to a pysche ward somewhere! Her radiance is intense in all of them and it is hard for me to look at for more than a few moments. They remind me of the good times we have shared with each other for more than half our lives together.
The new day brings on the next round.
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Im overwelmed with saddness Steve. thanks for the update. Just want to jump on a plane and come and sit by k's side, and be there for you to shed a tear with. Will keep in touch. Sending so much love to you and Kels. You have been such a brave, devoted and courages partner to k. I am so grateful for you in her life. she has been blessed.
ReplyDeleteLots of love
Jude
Tom and I thinking of you and hope our thoughts will contribute in that universal way, that we know little about, but know somehow helps xxx
ReplyDeleteKripa, You are not alone. Every one of us will follow you. Peace, beautiful girl.
ReplyDeleteSteve and Kelsey, Hold on to each moment. Each precious moment. And when the moment is passed, let it go. Love to you both in these long hours and moments, that will pass all too quickly. Love always.